End

It is not love that I should seek for

It is happiness. 

And if the love that I'm craving 

does not bring happiness

Then I shall not.

I, should not.

This sense of unworthiness

I feel broken beyond words

Dear you #2

I've got no excuse for the decisions I've made this whole time
All that's left to say is (I'm sorry)

I tried, I tried so damn hard to move on
I tell myself all the time that I need to stop looking back
Hence, the bad decisions I guess

And I can't explain why I've decided to stop (running away)
Something in my heart (mind?) just clicked
That no matter how hard I try, it's never gonna work

It's you
It's always been you

I'm sorry I'm only learning now

Dear you #1

In hindsight, I guess I was still very much angry and hurt then. I forgave, but I couldn't forget.

And so, I did whatever I wanted, taking everything very much for granted. Perhaps that was my way of venting my anger subconsciously.

The me then, had no idea how to work things out. Because I was hurt, because I was angry, because I was sad.

Strange how the mind and heart work at times.

I'm tired of running away now.

Long shot

Sudden epiphany.

No more running, tough days ahead.

Seems like I've got my solutions after all.